How it is

Understanding comes slowly.
Unyielding pain and suffocating breathlessness are the messengers.
They give a glimpse, a taste of some who have gone before.
How it is to be under constant siege.
Relentless.
Never Ending.
Until everything ends.
How it is to hold perverse jealousy for those who have made their escape.
How it is to wish it were me instead of them, and to know that is pure selfishness.
How it is to have only a distant memory of life without pain.
How it is to realize it was all taken for granted.
How it is to wish for a way, an avenue, an exit.
From pain.
From hopelesness.
Vic and Bett, I miss you.
And I'm beginning to understand you.
Please forgive me, I never knew.

My Budding Actress!

Amanda recently performed in the production ?!CINDERELLA!? at Milton High School, and at Regional Competition (in which they won third place!!). This is my favorite "headshot".

A picture is worth 1,0000 words.